Oh, where to start. This letter is a bit long overdue. I should have written this about ten years ago but I’m a bit behind what with life, having a baby, oh and I’m a bit lazy, that too. I want to say a few things and an open letter on the internet is always a good place to start now isn’t it 😉
If I was a time traveller (which, I’m not, by the way), there are quite a few bits of my past that I would change, the majority of which involve you. I don’t want this to turn into a list of all the naughty things I did when I was younger, because lets face it, one post alone wouldn’t cover it (!!) but there are certainly some things that I still carry guilt around for and now that I’m a mum, especially to a girl its like I’ve had a huge epiphany moment. I can appreciate what you went through, I get it, trying to raise a wayward teenage daughter, and how hard things must have been and I am sorry.
I think you are the most amazing woman. You are kind, strong and brave and if anyone were to ask me who I look up to or who I admire, it wouldn’t be anyone famous, it would be you. You single handily (pretty much) raised me, my brother and sister whilst Pops was working abroad. You coped with moving the family around, being in new places on your own, raising new babies, often with little or no help. I’ve always got the impression that you just got on with things, when no doubt, things were quite tough for you. And you and Pops are something else, you guys have made it work. Things haven’t always been rosy, but you guys have rolled with it, soldiered on and powered through and you’re still together, that’s an amazing feet in itself. You are a little double act now, a team together dealing with new challenges.
You are always there for me when I need you, you always offer to help, no request is ever denied (within reason!) you always think of others and are incredibly generous. You are everything I want to be in a mother. I know I need to do this my own way, but that you will always be there for me. I’m just so sorry it took me so long to see all of this, but we got there eventually!
Love you Mumma xx
If you could write an open letter, who would you send yours too?